Split personality?

I think I might develop a split personality soon. haha. One side of me is really sick of these nonsense, another side is telling myself to remain positive.

I envy my friend who is now a proud owner of a coffee roasting company. We started off on the same foot but he dropped out. With courage, he grabbed a good opportunity in front of him and started to work for what he has now. I am sure he enjoyed what he is doing now!

I want to enjoy everything I am doing. I love the shit sometimes, the adrenaline rush of trying to meet that unreasonable dropdead deadlines, learning new things because people asked questions. Yet, it gets me sick for going through the same thing over and over again.

This has always been my favourite quote and formed my belief:
“Enjoy the little things, for one day you make look back and realize they were the big things.” ~Robert Brault

yet on the other end, "it's these small things (attitude, events) that pissed me off the most", then you tell yourself "comeon, that are bigger things in life to worry about!", then came back to ground zero with my favourite quote. debating with me, and myself.

There is really no right or wrong. Life is all about decisions and choices. For me, every day I only look forward to is to talk to my family or snuggle in bed with my hubby. That's the place that I find peace, to give myself strength for the next day of shit.