Demoralised again

Today my mood was great - woke up early and went to a great place for a swim, ate my fav guan mee pok kuay tiao, and went facial!

So I decided to go buy mooncake for my deceased sis - she love orh nee mooncake with egg yolk. and itchy backside me decided to buy another 2 for my beloved grandma (which I already bought 4 snowskin ones for her last week; she don't like snowskin, so I bought another 2 traditional bake for her). I delivered and my 2nd auntie is there.

Then it started... she start telling me ah ma don't like snowskin, don't like durian flavour (she only like real durian). I am polite, I smile, I told her I got buy for her the mango pomelo favor for her what. She said is it? blah blah blah. A cut in my heart, she obviously never even open it up! :(

Then I said I have bought for her another one.. then I asked whether she wanna try the orh nee one, I bought for sis, but I have two.. My auntie started to jump to conclusion: "HUH, you used this to pray for your sis and still dare to give ah ma". So I tried to explain that no no no, I just bought it (Hurt me again. DUMB right! I told her I just bought these mooncakes!) Then started telling me this and that, ah ma showed me what the 2nd auntie's daughter bought for her - her fav mooncake from mandarin. Hurt thrice.

Then I went home bake cookies. My mum disappeared from home until she called at 8 plus. She said she went shopping! And what if I am not at home, no one feed nana! Annoyed. She came home and keep telling me her $200 plus cheong sum. She don't bother to try my cookies, she don't even asked. Hurt another time.

Then I asked my dad to try. He said normal loh, too sweet.

Ultimate boiling point.

My whole family is the same! They don't appreciate favours. definitely didn't appreciate me and whatever I do! Not envouraging! SUPER PISSED! Anyway, I always think that I should be the one with cancer and die off. Whatever I do for them, I can never get their encouragement or appreciation.

My new family members are also the same. They criticized our design and wanna tear away the kitchen (though they offer to pay). I know they mean well but why cant they appreciate the good points rather than harping on the weaknesses! We already did it, we will leave with it.

I just hope to get over with 1 Oct. I can Imagine all sorts of criticisms coming up. I can't take those too well, I care alot abt everyone's opinion. But the fact stays - you can't please everyone. Just please yourself!!