Feel stronger now

I used to tear badly whenever pple asked me about my sister.

The tears just start to swivel in my eyes. I can't help it. And I felt so bad everytime because the listener just couldn't react. Some listener had no emotions, nor signs of empathy (which made the whole situation awkward). Some felt really bad about my situation.

I just had a conversation with a friend. I felt stronger. I didn't cry during the conversation. *grin*

but this doesn't mean I forgotten of you. I still miss you lots. The vending machine, any sweets and sourish sweets, Nana and veggie.

Whenever I go shopping with a friend, I will say "If my sister is still around, I will surely buy this for her." This doesn't mean I still cannot let go of your departure. It just meant that you are never forgotten nor replaceable, silly girl.

Gosh, I am starting to cry when I typed this.