Something from a friend

Was feeling super depressed and useless on a Friday night. Struggling with a job that seem messy yet seem okay. I have absolutely no idea if it's due to my incapability or the job. I started to lose faith, confidence and myself. The surrounding become super noisy with renovations work ongoing and some engagement teams from other unit coming back to finish up their work.

Perhaps it's because they have a team and I am the only one at that area alone (where all my peers left because they are coming in on weekends), on a Friday night, struggling with tons of work that I know I can't finish yet couldn't bear to go home.

I felt extremely vexed, useless. to the extent I wanted to shout at them to shut up and finish their work and get lost!

I decided not to take cab and took a train instead coz that's the only place I can think of where I can sit down for 40 min, playing my DS lite and not worrying about anything.

My colleague sent me this:

"记得以前师父说：人忙心不忙。现在我慢慢体会到，只要保持心中的安稳，再忙碌的生活也可以坦然面对，脚踏实地一步一步的走下去。不否认，有时的确会非常多东西要处理，但是当你仔细去想想，再安排一下时间，你会觉得‘很’多事情，其实算起来也不过是几样事情而已；再用心一点，你会觉得事情并不会像想象中复杂难搞；再专心一点，你会觉得事情不止是做‘完’，而且可以做的很‘好’。

我很欣赏苹果电脑老板Steve Job的生活态度，每天起来告诉自己今天可能是生命的最后一天，所以要努力生活，不给生命留下遗憾，这才是佛教徒的生活态度。"

Some logics that I already figured out in the past but as time passed, I couldn't put it into action. anymore. Perhaps by putting it here, I can somehow remind myself. and to remind whoever will be reading this.

Gonna relax at home today. and probably back to that messy office tomorrow.